Season's greetings

Here we go,

Not me blasting movie soundtracks, Taylor swift and Christmas classics on full volume while writing this blog....... or maybe it is :)

It's the 24th of December and boy I can only say Christmas gets better each year. Our second Christmas in the USA and although my thoughts have been going out to the people we would've spent it with in the NL... Still I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

Like I wrote in my previous blog(s) things have been rough over here but I feel like we are slowly making our way back up the mountain. I have gone to dark places, being frustrated with my body and working through stuff but now that I am getting out of all that I do see how there were lessons to be learned. Lessons in taking care of my body, communicating with Niels and above all having true friends show up when it matters most.

My biggest Christmas gift came early on friday in the form of biopsy results. My infection is GONE!! A lot of recovery to be done and I am still not feeling great but just knowing I am not fighting a major infection anymore is such a relief!

With the holidays and the last week of 2023 approaching I can't help but feel emotional in so many ways. If you would have asked me 2 months ago I would have told you that 2023 was an amazing year for us despite all the setbacks but that I was scared of what 2024 would bring.

Now, oh boy here come the waterworks, now I feel confident that 2024 will even be better. Expanding our family is on the back burner for now, there is a lot to be gained by letting my body get back to a 100% and I have no doubts this will come with mental challenges. 2024 will bring whatever it brings and I am giving myself the chance and time to work through all of those, confident and hopeful that our family will grow when the time is right.

First we heal from all this and then we'll go from there. I specifically say WE because boy this year and all it's challenges has been a lot on Niels his shoulders too, thankful we have been able to stay connected and get back to what matters most through all of it. He's been my rock and I know it has not always been easy, so thankful I get to live this life with him.

Sorry for turning this into a mushy post but this being my last post of 2023 makes me want to say so many things before turning the page to a new year.

Readers have gone up and down the past year and my hope is that anybody reading my posts has been able to take something away from it. Little nuggets of self help, positivity, reflection or just the fact that somebody might be going through the same things as you, having the same feelings and confronting them head on.

May your Christmas be filled with love and laughter and may you enter the New Year with curiosity and wonder for what's to come!

Thank you for reading along with me, I hope you'll still be here next year!