Closing time by Semisonic. I believe I wrote about this song before.
But is there a rule about only writing about subjects once? I don't think so, and even if there was...... this is my blog and I am going to do it anyway.
This song means so much to me. During one of the seemingly darkest periods I've had this was what I listened to non stop. A time in which I doubted everything: my place in life, my worth as a mother, my body, friendships and what the rest of our future would look like.
There were so many changes in my life at that moment and I was not handling them all very well. Niels and I were working towards the same goal but it was almost like we were doing so on separate teams.
I have never been the person to sit back and let things overtake me. So I did the only thing that seemed right at the time (thankfully with some amazing people cheering me on) I started building up this new person I was becoming. Building on the foundation that has always been there, but being more conscious about the parts that I wanted to maintain / keep and the parts that I had to let go off.
Like I said this song was on repeat for most of the days back then. And today Spotify decided it was a good one to shuffle it right into my cleaning playlist. As I heard the first few notes my eyes filled with tears. Not because I felt sorry for myself about all the grief and pain that had been there. Contrary to that, these tears were there because the person I was back then and the person I am now seem like two worlds apart. I know how I felt back then, but given how wonderful life has been lately there is just no way I can even phantom those feelings.
Everything changed!
Being in the USA and having our residence here is a big part of that but there is so much more to it.
Kevin is a thriving two year old (toddler). Emphasis on the toddler part because o boy, I did not expect to get so much push-back from such a little person. He is finding his place in this world and I feel blessed to be the one being by his side for all of it.
Niels and I have grown so much together and spoken for myself I see and recognize the effort he puts in this growth process every day.
Whatever lies behind us is in the past and our future holds so much promise.
I am sure there will be ups and downs along the way but we've overcome so much, I am sure we will tackle anything together.
This might just be one of the happiest posts I have wrote on here. Get ready for more because life is looking pretty darn good right about now :)
Thank you for following along, feel free to reach out. Wherever you are in your journey, you're not alone!
Closing time, open all the doorsAnd let you out into the worldClosing time, turn all of the lights onOver every boy and every girl
Closing time, one last call for alcoholSo, finish your whiskey or beerClosing time, you don't have to go homeBut you can't stay here
I know who I want to take me homeI know who I want to take me homeI know who I want to take me homeTake me home
Closing time, time for you to go outTo the places you will be fromClosing time, this room won't be openTill your brothers or your sisters come
So, gather up your jackets, move it to the exitsI hope you have found a friendClosing time, every new beginningComes from some other beginning's end, yeah
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